Meeting God at the Crossroads

“Destiny is a decision–a difficult decision, a daring decision, a counterintuitive decision.  You fulfill your destiny one opportunity at a time.  Of course, those opportunities often come disguised as five hundred pound problems.”  Mark Batterson

There comes a time (or multiple times) in everyone’s life where we find ourselves at a pivotal crossroads.  Many times I believe this happens without us either knowing it or comprehending the weightiness of our decision (and the heart or true intentions behind the decision).  How we choose to apply ourselves in school, where we go to college, what we study, the friends we surround ourselves with, who we choose to marry, how we respect our parents and elders, whether we remain teachable, where we choose to work and how we decide to spend our most precious investment….our time, treasure and talents.

Each of these decisions shapes our journey and ultimately our destiny.

Life comes at us quickly and many can testify that as you get older, time seems to speed up.  In fact, I’m utterly amazed at how quickly my 12 year old son is growing up yet somehow, I stay the same!  😉  James 4:14 says, “What is your life?  You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.”  Country artists “Little Big Town” have a song I  love called “Vapor”.  Here is a sampling of the lyrics:

“When I lay my head down at the end of another day; Did I keep it all to myself or did I give my love away; Did I hold who should have been held, so they remember just how I felt; Did I say what should be said; will I wake with no regrets….I wanna live.  I wanna love; like one more day is never too much, never enough….Life is a vapor; fire and paper; gonna make the most of it before it’s gone.”

Life is a vapor.  That’s a given.  The question really is, what are we going to do with this life we’ve been given and why.

I’ve recently been at a crossroads myself.  I’ve worked at a company for 18+ years and about a year and a half ago, a serious stirring began in my heart.  Like the storm clouds rolling in ahead of a tornado….  In fact, if we’re Facebook buddies, you’ve probably seen me reach out a couple of times to straight up ask for prayer because I knew I wouldn’t escape some of these trials without God’s covering and intervention.   I had no crutches left to rely on….only Him.  I prayed out loud through many of the Psalms and found that when the time came, God continually closed the mouths of the lions around me.

During this season, I put my resume together and began looking for other opportunities, looking for an out.  I also had some friends ask me, seemingly in passing, “Have you thought about taking your side business full time?”  I would usually dismiss that idea and continued to think inside the “safe” box that I had made (granted I didn’t think or realize I was doing this).

I would send resumes out and pray.  Reach out to my immediate network in the field I am in and see if there was anything out there that I could easily transition into.  Either my timing was bad, they couldn’t afford me full time or seemingly good interviews went dark.  Time after time.  “Why am I still here?” I would often wonder.  Then the thought came to mind, “Maybe there is one more person you need to be there for or get to know.”  Ah, God’s plans.  ‘Okay, Lord.  If that is the case, I’ll do it….but help me find something better once Your purpose is fulfilled.’

Rather than look to run, I looked expectantly as to what I was supposed to do next (although I still kept my “feelers” out there).

More time passed and I began to think about ways I could get creative and maybe, just maybe, ramp up my business into a full-time gig.  I approached a few companies about doing some business development for them on a part time basis to help with cash flow.  One of the three gave me an immediate “yes” within 10 minutes.  One was a “no” after a day or two and one was a wildcard.  A “I’d like to do it but we can’t right now….”

At the same time another company had flown me out to Charlotte, NC for a day of follow up interviews.  During the interview, the gentleman that would be my boss and I started talking about our faith and walks with God.  “This is awesome!”, I thought.  Maybe God is answering my prayer about working for a Christian boss!  A couple of days after those interviews, the job offer came.  It was a step above where I was currently at salary-wise and I got along great with the boss and the team members that I met….but….you guessed it….I didn’t have peace about it.

I wrestled and prayed through the decision.  I made “pro and con” lists and prayed some more.  When I asked the company for more time to decide, they graciously gave me another week to process everything.  They knew it was a big move for me and for them and wanted to be sure that I was 100% on board.  I was at a crucial crossroads.  Then these thoughts entered my mind….

‘I am giving you two choices.  I will bless either one you choose….but the level of blessing will depend on your level of faith and which way you decide to go.  You can take the ‘safe” path if you like, make more than you have been making and work for the kind of boss you would have prayed about….or…..you can take a step of faith.  You can start up your own full time business.  It will be an adventure with Me and you will have no ceiling on your potential level of success.  It’s up to you.’

So I decided to “go big or go home”!  I turned down the job offer and decided to take the path of adventure with Him.  When I have doubts that begin to creep in, He upholds me and encourages me constantly as I get closer to my kick off.  This happens to be the first week of July….”Independence Day” week!  Don’t think I missed that little nuance from God.  🙂  God leads me to things that I read at just the perfect time, people say things at just the right time, unexpected blessings come from unexpected places and people.  I’ve asked God to help things go better than I ever expected.  One of the companies made me a part-time offer which I accepted….and then they upped the offer….which I accepted…. and then upped it again…without me ever even asking them to.  I can only attribute that to God and His faithfulness and provision.

I have big “God sized” dreams for this.  I want to make more so I can give more and do more.  Yes for my family but also for the Kingdom and God’s purposes.  That is my heart.  I’ve already told Him that He is my CEO (or DEO “Deity Executive Officer”) because after all, I couldn’t have a more “Christian” boss than that!

What God does with all of this is ultimately up to Him.  Let His will be done.  But I’m pumped and ready….Let’s gooooooo!

“Burn sinful bridges.  Blaze new trails.  Live for the applause of nail-scarred hands.  Don’t let what’s wrong with you keep you from worshiping what’s right with God.  Dare to fail.  Dare to be different. Quit holding out.  Quit holding back.  Quit running away.  Chase the lion.”  Mark Batterson

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